One Woman’s Journey from Sexual Disconnection & to Sexual Revelation & Empowerment
In my early forties, newly divorced and quietly unfulfilled after years of unsatisfying intimacy, I felt a restlessness I could no longer ignore. From the outside, my life in financial services looked stable. Inside, I felt disconnected—from my body, my desire, and a deeper sense of aliveness.
Booking a session for sensual massage with Colin at Intimacy Matters felt daring at the time. I arrived nervous, unsure of what I was truly seeking. What I experienced was far more than pleasure. It was attuned, intentional touch. It was being met without expectation. It was the profound exhale of feeling safe enough to soften.
That experience awakened something in me. I began volunteering as a sensual massage bodywork receiver for sensual massage trainees, allowing myself to explore touch in a conscious, embodied way. I discovered how transformative skilled, respectful touch can be—not performative, not transactional, but deeply human. I learned what it means to be held with presence.
When I was made redundant from my corporate role, the loss felt less like an ending and more like an invitation. I realized I no longer wanted to return to work that kept me in my head while my body and intuition waited quietly in the background.
I trained in professional massage and later deepened my studies in the giving sensual massage by taking the Intimacy Matters Professional Practice 26 hour training with Colin Richards. The training was grounded, structured, ethical and Colin took care to deliver the training at the right pace for me. I learned how powerful sensual touch is along with nervous system regulation, consent, energetic awareness and the responsibility that comes with intimate bodywork. It was important to me that this path be not only sensual, but skilled and professional.
Opening my practice post training felt both thrilling and vulnerable. I knew the power of this work because I had lived it. Now I was stepping into the role of sensual masseuse myself.
Now
In the beginning, I was nervous. Each booking carried a flutter of anticipation. But as clients arrived, I realised they were often carrying the same quiet longing I once had—to feel cared for, seen, and truly at home in their bodies.
My practice has grown beyond what I imagined. Word of mouth spread, and my calendar filled. What sustains it is not novelty, but depth. I create a space where breath slows, where guardedness can gently dissolve, where pleasure is approached with integrity and respect.
This work is sensual, yes—but it is also about presence. It is about attuned touch, clear boundaries, and emotional safety. It is about offering an experience in which someone can reconnect with sensation without pressure or performance.
The transformation I witness is subtle but powerful: softened shoulders, deeper breathing, eyes that shine differently when a session ends. I see people rediscover confidence, embodiment, and self-acceptance.
And I see my own transformation too.
I am no longer the nervous woman searching for something unnamed. I am grounded in my body, confident in my skills, and proud of the space I hold. What began as a personal exploration became a vocation rooted in care, professionalism, and conscious sensuality.
Then, I was seeking to reconnect with myself.
Now, I guide others back to themselves—through touch that is both skilled, sensual and soulful. It’s powerful and hugely rewarding.
